My True Experience

My experiences have been crude as of late. Been hard to see the truth in all. My mind has been abrasive. I've been through better experiences. One thing that always remains pure and true though is my love for my precious daughter I love with all my heart. I know my husband's love for me is true too. : )

I want to seek to be better. To have one high level of consciousness I stay true to, I heed to. I want it to always be there. I want to exude what it is so people can be in contact with it. It's what we all want to know is there. I want to feel the distinction between doubt and the knowing in it that is not revealed to the mind. I want to feel when people speak words and to recognize those limits. I want to be utterly free of the bonds of my mind. 

Are we more light or body? Are we the know-er or the known? I am not the known, the body. It breathes me. Sometimes I go for long lengths of time thinking I am the body. I am so connected to it though. It is a part of the known that I am able to experience. 

This freedom... I'd like to speak it everyday. 

The ground you have

Whenever I was able to go fruity, it was always from an inspiration I could harness. I don't think it could happen beautifully if I focused on rules and on the outside. Too much beauty to be appreciated : )

I recently came from a not-good place. Announcing it, even if just for a social update, puts the focus on something unworthy. Unless I can know that what I *tend* to do is not where I am coming from, false factors get involved in the process.

I want to be truthful in all I am, all I say, all I do.

Thank you for signals, for feedback, for the listening-sensing being that allows for sight.

With ♥

Clear and Right

You have to do your best... or you will be sorry!

You have to find it and you have to live it. It has to work.

Don't fill wrong with more wrong. Make it all right.

What's scary is you're the one that has to decide it and make it work with your part.

When you exercise your will it becomes sovereign, and things follow suit.

Aye yai yai

I have a wonderful husband. I have a gorgeous, sweet, happy daughter. I am happy.

Still, I know this is not all there is. I know there is misalignment with my spirit that is being ignored. I know I am not living to my full- what is it? Potential. It is one thing to ignore it, calling it a nuisance. To go off into isolation and try to be "free" from the world and the body, but I think that is not what our highest consciousness would have us do. I think Jesus was conscious and became such a public figure because it did not let him rest in the way things were, in the way people dealt with what they thought life was about. In that sense, I see why such people like Jesus are as salt of the earth. They care about souls. Just because they know how to live their lives in peace and love won't mean they'll isolate themselves and try to wall off the mess they see- they will bring betterment- what is needed to those who need it. Giving to them is just like giving to themselves, they really care for others like they do for themselves. How easy it is to get caught up in materialism and the self and think that's all there is- reducing our level of consciousness to our own experiences.

I think we are amazingly conscious of life... as children perhaps we saw and knew more than we thought we should have... but easily fell into what "fit" instead of living by consciousness. It really is hard not to.

Back to my fruitarian trials. I wrote publicly that I wanted to even if it lasts only for a short while, I still want to.

At the moment~

I don't feel very powerful... I feel human. I am with the same vulnerabilities and experiences of consequences as everyone else.

This little being of a baby inside me right now is due in 2 weeks. Will she be happy with growing up and able to live to the very full with what she possibly could? I'd like to be wary of that. A lot of it has to do with my relations with people around me and how I may draw kindness, blessings of the Creator by always forgiving, always seeking what's favorable for those around me, and sensing our oneness in how we may affect each other.

I guess... whatever path we are on, we will learn about it. What is good and what is not; what we are blessed with and what is missing in the picture.

Just a video...

... to get it started.

More fruit

I will strive for more fruit and less or nothing of the rest.

Whether I put it at the forefront of my mind or not, it always makes a difference if I am including the non-good food. I feel best; fresh, on fruits and some lettuces. My body acts weirdly with the addition of non-good food in different measures. I think my 5 months in the making baby would like it a lot too. Besides, I really want to do this the proper way, eating a lot of fruits and not under-eating or having seasonings. Fruit is Awesome, no doubt about that! Can't beat it. ; )

Also, I am feeling well now! Yeah, my tummy has a bit of bulge but I can be active and exercise. I have energy! I did not feel this way in my first trimester, no sir-ree, not at all. I'm going to be doing something great with it.

Blessings~***
Tinah

Side news: My husband's riddles are being posted daily on The Washington Post for 30 days. If you like solving riddles, you can see his original ones here.