Clear and Right

You have to do your best... or you will be sorry!

You have to find it and you have to live it. It has to work.

Don't fill wrong with more wrong. Make it all right.

What's scary is you're the one that has to decide it and make it work with your part.

When you exercise your will it becomes sovereign, and things follow suit.

Aye yai yai

I have a wonderful husband. I have a gorgeous, sweet, happy daughter. I am happy.

Still, I know this is not all there is. I know there is misalignment with my spirit that is being ignored. I know I am not living to my full- what is it? Potential. It is one thing to ignore it, calling it a nuisance. To go off into isolation and try to be "free" from the world and the body, but I think that is not what our highest consciousness would have us do. I think Jesus was conscious and became such a public figure because it did not let him rest in the way things were, in the way people dealt with what they thought life was about. In that sense, I see why such people like Jesus are as salt of the earth. They care about souls. Just because they know how to live their lives in peace and love won't mean they'll isolate themselves and try to wall off the mess they see- they will bring betterment- what is needed to those who need it. Giving to them is just like giving to themselves, they really care for others like they do for themselves. How easy it is to get caught up in materialism and the self and think that's all there is- reducing our level of consciousness to our own experiences.

I think we are amazingly conscious of life... as children perhaps we saw and knew more than we thought we should have... but easily fell into what "fit" instead of living by consciousness. It really is hard not to.

Back to my fruitarian trials. I wrote publicly that I wanted to even if it lasts only for a short while, I still want to.

At the moment~

I don't feel very powerful... I feel human. I am with the same vulnerabilities and experiences of consequences as everyone else.

This little being of a baby inside me right now is due in 2 weeks. Will she be happy with growing up and able to live to the very full with what she possibly could? I'd like to be wary of that. A lot of it has to do with my relations with people around me and how I may draw kindness, blessings of the Creator by always forgiving, always seeking what's favorable for those around me, and sensing our oneness in how we may affect each other.

I guess... whatever path we are on, we will learn about it. What is good and what is not; what we are blessed with and what is missing in the picture.

Just a video...

... to get it started.

More fruit

I will strive for more fruit and less or nothing of the rest.

Whether I put it at the forefront of my mind or not, it always makes a difference if I am including the non-good food. I feel best; fresh, on fruits and some lettuces. My body acts weirdly with the addition of non-good food in different measures. I think my 5 months in the making baby would like it a lot too. Besides, I really want to do this the proper way, eating a lot of fruits and not under-eating or having seasonings. Fruit is Awesome, no doubt about that! Can't beat it. ; )

Also, I am feeling well now! Yeah, my tummy has a bit of bulge but I can be active and exercise. I have energy! I did not feel this way in my first trimester, no sir-ree, not at all. I'm going to be doing something great with it.

Blessings~***
Tinah

Side news: My husband's riddles are being posted daily on The Washington Post for 30 days. If you like solving riddles, you can see his original ones here.

Lovin' the fruity Summer days...

I'm not pure fruit lately but enjoying lots of it... and bowlfuls of the fresh tender greens!

I love my nephew. Can't see his cuteness in the clip. He is staying with us until the weekend when his parents come back from vacation.

He turned 1 in late June!

He didn't like wearing his traditional Korean outfit...


but he liked the football (or any round object he can throw/roll/bounce) and I think he liked the singing too!

I am tutoring quite a lot. My autistic student has his own blog he writes in with assistance in spelling and syntax from his tutors (me and another girl who work with him on different days).

I have one last summer class (a Biology course) I am now taking before I am finally done with my bachelor's degree in Psychology! I am not allowed to participate in dissections (so no lab for this week for me) since I am pregnant (5 months this Thursday, can you believe it?).

Our wedding photographer hasn't gotten back to us with the proofs yet. My cousin took and sent me some pictures.




Our flower girl. She was timid so her mom came and walked with her.


Happy Summer, love and care to all!

Wedding reflections

Just thought I'd update about our wedding. None of these are by our professional photographer, as those are not ready yet. These are taken by friends and family.

Our first dance. The bridesmaids dresses were gorgeous, with rhinestones along the front and sheer material which split down the dress.



Obtaining the garter: I was telling Tom not to lift the dress too high.

Here is our centerfold piece at the country club. This is a church member behind the centerfold. There were vanilla scented tea lights surrounding this. The butterflies were inserted into the oasis. The floating flower is a Gerber daisy.

High school friends who came out.

When I get pictures, I'll post of our cute flower girl (cousin's daughter who looks like Precious Moments toddler) and perhaps some from the ceremony. Tom picked me up and carried me down the aisle.

It was fun. The next day I got nauseous, threw up, and slept for 15 hours. Feeling much better today.